There are also many survivors who deal with anxiety on a daily basis, please know this is not unusual and that we are here with you. Mine only seem to be brought on with exertion or physical activity of any kind, I mean even walking fast, standing up fast, or going up stairs. I did go into my sickness with my theology in the right place. i ve been experiencng these flutters now almost an year. In the meantime, Im hoping the Beta blockers youre on will help with your PVCs. I prayed 20+ times a day. Everyone who is such a seeker should read this optimistic book of one who seems to have succeeded in the process of turning a potentially base life into a golden achievement, a true alchemists conversion. You need to see that your faith is under attack. Then one day a bible verse came across my Twitter feed that changed my life. And we surely always drag something into the suffering that enters our door. Bad. He hasnt spoken to me in a while.. Then God spoke to me and Ill never forget it. Padahal itu mah cuma perasaan saja, yang memang selalu lebay berlebihan. In my weakness I have known strength that I never knew before. Been encouraged over and over for most of life but would try for awhile then fall back into the same stuff. I have failed this responsibility and did exactly what He warns us not to do. Its agonizing to not hear from God. Had the Holy Spirit really left me? so stressful - just want to chime in, offer sympathy for those who have them, and relate my story. The arms and legs begin to work in concert. Jen, can you explain what you mean by you not being able to repent? However, I feel worried that I dont have the love for Christ and I am really hoping that God will help me to soften my heart and open my eyes to the true glory of Jesus Christ and the Father who sent him but right now I feel my heart takes it for granted, and I know that it is death, and that Jesus would not know me. Thanks again!! He has come to know that Gods power is made perfect in his weakness. That perspective comes from the damnable heresy of once saved always saved. Cause Ill be by your side WHENEVER you fall Orin As a child i grew up in a cgristian home but I made stupud sinful choices and willfully sinned knowing i was wrong. If this is the case, please be brutally honest with me and just tell me the truth of it. Rather, the problem is within us. I felt myself literally sinking. But God is good. So it was ether super low and causing anxiety, or the anxiety was driving my numbers down. has god given up? The only thing I could think of is that I gained a lot of weight and became out of shape. I have been blazing a trail of wrath and fury through my life, distraught at things I cannot change and wrongs I cannot have undone to me, and my own rage and anger has gripped my heart and made me wretched. Today, if you hear his voice,do not harden you, Satan is in the business of deceiving and twisting scriptures to fit his intent. It is just too hard. karena luka memang utk disembuhkan What has the power to allow you to forget that no matter what painful thing youre enduring, as Gods child its impossible for you to endure it all by yourself? I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Then the day comes when the child is able to raise himself up. Our spiritual life seems uncoordinated, disjointed, and without a heart for God. This may not make sense to you if right now you are going through something that you wouldnt have planned for yourself, but the weakness that is now a part of my regular life has been a huge instrument of Gods grace (see 2 Cor. Shortly after he collapsed and died at family dinner. Faithfully taking prescribed medications is also very important. He has overcome the, Thank you, Chad, for sharing this valuable insight. My Mind.., Quote It can be transformed. The good news is that God does indeed hear the cry of the afflicted.